I have only been home a day but it is enough to remember why I don't have a dream, I am living my dream!! This is what I always wanted, a place of peace, security, and I must add, beauty in the mountains!! I love my little space that destiny led me to and to live here in good health with the knowledge that all my descendants are very capable, healthy and wise and able to make their own mark in the eternal scheme of things, I am, in deed, very blessed.
True, when I dreamed this dream I should have dreamed having my love here by my side. Then I would never be lonely. But you know what, in all honesty, Richard would have been bored to death here. He did not have hobbies or "stuff" to keep him busy. He had to have things to organize, to manage, to manipulate, to negotiate or he was just not fulfilled. He had a life full of that and is probably now Heavenly Father's best organizer of councils in heaven.
I have so many books to read, my organ to play, quilts to quilts, material to sew, family history to complete, memory books to finish, friends and family to visit, gardens to tend, a temple near by and always a step away from a beautiful walk in the woods. Who could ask for more. I may even go back to swimming in the lake this summer. (And I love my fire wood stove burning every day.)
When I was at a park with Kelsi in Rancho Santa Fe I talked with a realtor who was tending her grandchild. She told me of a client who was just a little younger that I. But this poor woman was having to sell her home and move to Texas where she hoped she could get some help from her daughter. This 70 something woman had two grandchildren she cared for full time, one 10 and one 11. She also had a 26 year old disabled grandchild who was bedridden, her full charge. And she recently had to bring her daughter into her home who was 49 and had had a stroke. The woman had had a reversible mortgage on her home but had to sell soon and hopefully recoup some equity to move on to a cheaper place to live. The realtor said the government who helps so many was not much help to this lady. As always there are those who know how to get every freebie there is while others who have a need go without.
As a friend keeps telling me, "Gratitude is riches, complaint is poverty," I have nothing to complain about and can only be very grateful. I am living my dream.
Update: Who knew that I would have to do the same thing, sell my dream home with a reverse mortgage and live with my daughter. Enjoy your moments, life is always changing.