Today I was looking in my blog and blog printed books for the conversion story of my Lake Almanor friend Marjorie I thought I had written about. I found it but not the "rest of the story" I received later from Richard's cousin who had been instrumental in Marjorie's conversion Somehow I never went back and included that portion in the story so the memory is lost forever unless I can find the email or letter, etc. that had that extra detail in it.
While I was browsing I came upon some experiences I had written about that made me laugh out loud and some that made me shed a tear of happiness and I thought this is wonderful to have these memories brought back at an instant's touch.
After Richard died I had an interview with Linda's Bishop. I had gone to live with her while I decided where to go and what to do and he had invited me in to talk and share some spiritual comfort. As he was a very intuitive, caring, spiritual man it was a good interview for me and he suggested I keep a journal of my feelings at this time. I have tried to do that since John was born but I put more effort into it after talking to him. And then when Maria showed me how to blog in 2005 it opened up a whole new way of preserving memories and pictures all together with minimal effort. I am so glad I do it. Everyone should make the effort to preserve those thoughts, feelings, and experiences because you think you will remember but you won't, believe me you won't.
Unfortunately so often when I would write in my journal previous to my blogging it would be when I was feeling gloomy or upset about something and that was my way of comforting myself and working through my feelings. I often neglected to write the everyday happy things that brought so much joy into my life. After Richard died I thought I had better go back and erase some of those gloomy thoughts--but now I just wish I had written more of the joyful moments!!!! Those early writings I wrote when John was a baby and this was a new experience in our life are some of my better journaling. I should have kept it up but it is so hard when you are a very busy Mom. Still I should have found the time.
Of course, now, my children will have a challenge deciding what to do with all my blogging, memory and photo books when I die. But actually for me the therapy is in the doing and when I reread them as I did today, it reminds me of the profound blessings and happiness I have had in my life.
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