Richard's birthday today, so feeling gloomy. I remember when I was working in Galveston after Hurricane Katrina and Rita and we went to a Christmas parade downtown. Glenda dressed up in Victorian costume but I did not. There were many who did. One couple in particular in white hair caught my attention.
I thought how wonderful that would be to have a partner to grow old with together and look so comfortable marching in a parade or anywhere. Of course, there is no knowing how happy they were but they looked happy. I was envious.
I remmber also in Hong Kong with Meagan when we visited some town and were in the mall. I was watching the escalator as a Mormon missionary senior couple emerged at the top and were animatedly talking--on their day off, I suppose, and I was really envious. They looked so happy in their togetherness.
No answers as to why some people live a long time in pain or bedridden and others just drop dead at a young age...no answers. And others live a long time sharing a lifetime of joy and trouble together. Seems I have been alone a lot...oh, well, hope Richard is happy on his mission up there. Wish I had it a little easier in my old age.
But I am working on the front deck. I did a lousy job of cleaning it because I ran out of deck wash and steam so the stain job will not be so good, but there is always next yearr...maybe do a better job then...or no job at all. Life is so unpredictable.